A while ago, I made a Facebook event for a housewarming party. I lacked the energy to actually invite anyone.
Now the date of the event is approaching. Instead, I am having people individually over. That’s about the level of energy right now.
It would be even easier to not have anyone over, but that is just not happening either. I may enjoy my own company, but I also like my friends.
I figured it might be time to give a little update on the whole burnout situation. Since my March goal was all about getting better, it also seemed fitting to combine it with April goals.
Because I am better. Slowly getting there. It has taken a while. But this week was actually the first where I have had a couple of days when I felt like I had a surplus of energy and was “clear” in the head. And it was so amazing that even the down-time the next day, did not feel like such a downer. Because I had a good day the day before.
I am slowly taking the initiative to extend what I do and gain a sense of accomplishment from that. When I go to visit my grandmother in the nursing home, I take a walk around the nursing home (or further if the energy allows.) When I visited a local museum (because I had free tickets.) I actually stopped the car on the way home to walk three times around a small pond.
We have also done some cleaning out and organising of some storage space in the basement, and just the concept of being on my feet for four hours and doing things would have been too much for me a month ago. I am rather feeling that it is telling of where I am at the moment.
Today I started work again. Not full time. But the time I was there was good. I even had more energy to spare once I was done. And then I biked 20 minute outside in the sunshine in the afternoon. And now I am exhausted. I know why I am exhausted, so it is a good exhaustion. I have done things.
The goals for April is:
- Continue what I am doing, as I feel like it is working.
- Do some gardening outside.
- Meet friends for coffee.
Of course, it became evident when the fever left me that I am really terrible at being “in-between” ill. When I had fever and was coughing, I was quite good at that. Making sure I had enough to drink. Kept warm or cold depending on what my body wanted. And took a couple of Panodil to get the fever to behave once it reached 39 degrees.
When the fever went away, I still felt terrible, because then the mucus started its invasion. I felt lethargic after the fever.
But also because the hormones that the fever had repressed suddenly came back to life and with the hormones come my anxiety and my depression.
Which result in fun (?) times either way.
After almost a week at home, I had my first day back at work today. With the lack of energy, and lack of appetite, it was a shortened day at work – but as I kept working from home, it still ended up being a long work day. Fortunate that I have enough projects that can be done from home.
When I visited my grandmother in the nursing home on Saturday, she and the other inmates were a coughing choir.
On Monday, two days later, the cold I had been waiting for, for weeks, broke. Only, I suspect the flu instead, as there is fever, aches in the muscles, lack of appetite, mucus and a lot of coughing.
Fun times. I am sleeping moderately well at night, though, thanks to Panodil. I am not a person who naps during the day, so getting in 6+ hours of sleep at night is crucial.
I am trying to only use the Panodil for the things it will help the most with – the fever and muscle aches when I am trying to sleep. I sort of figure that my body needs the rest to heal itself.
Yesterday, I juiced a bunch of clementines and ginger, with some carrots and an apple to get some vitamins and fluid in.
Anyone have any good tips for the flu?